Posted by: humlan
What should I do..feeling guilty? - 12/30/07 11:26 PM
Do you remember my friend that lost her husband this spring? You all helped me so much around the funeral... well, since then I have been keeping in touch with her almost daily..and visiting her as often as I can. She is doing ok..but it´s SO TOUGH!!!! SO LONELY for her!
She told me a while back that New Year´s Eve will probably the hardest time for her because that is the time that was special for her and her husband. And now New Year´s Eve is here. She hasn´t asked me outright to come visit with her.. and my partner, who very rarely expresses a wish or need in this type of situation, said that he would really like me to be at home with him and his son on New Year´s Eve..if possible. I had discussed this situation with him some time ago and he came back with his thoughts and answers this evening. Which I also appreciate.
Sooooo..what do I do??? Help! I remember when my daughter died how devasted and paralyzed I was that first Christmas without her. And we had 3 other children..so we weren´t alone. My present partner is not the father of my children. We finally solved our Christmas dilemma way back then by asking my husband´s brother´s family to help us out. We celebrated Christmas at their house. And now I am thinking of how I felt then..and feeling for my dear dear friend who is facing her New Year´s Eve alone. I know that she will not come to us here at home which would be great. But she is wary of breaking down at other people´s homes. Which is understandable and can be sooo hard. You just want to be transported immediately to your own little dark corner in your own home. Even the ride home in such a situation can be a nightmare.. I know. I know. I know.
How am I supposed to think??? All help and thoughts are appreciated very very much. I am going to call my friend now to see how she is..get the feel of things. But I would like to be with her tomorrow evening, too. And I want to be here at home...
She told me a while back that New Year´s Eve will probably the hardest time for her because that is the time that was special for her and her husband. And now New Year´s Eve is here. She hasn´t asked me outright to come visit with her.. and my partner, who very rarely expresses a wish or need in this type of situation, said that he would really like me to be at home with him and his son on New Year´s Eve..if possible. I had discussed this situation with him some time ago and he came back with his thoughts and answers this evening. Which I also appreciate.
Sooooo..what do I do??? Help! I remember when my daughter died how devasted and paralyzed I was that first Christmas without her. And we had 3 other children..so we weren´t alone. My present partner is not the father of my children. We finally solved our Christmas dilemma way back then by asking my husband´s brother´s family to help us out. We celebrated Christmas at their house. And now I am thinking of how I felt then..and feeling for my dear dear friend who is facing her New Year´s Eve alone. I know that she will not come to us here at home which would be great. But she is wary of breaking down at other people´s homes. Which is understandable and can be sooo hard. You just want to be transported immediately to your own little dark corner in your own home. Even the ride home in such a situation can be a nightmare.. I know. I know. I know.
How am I supposed to think??? All help and thoughts are appreciated very very much. I am going to call my friend now to see how she is..get the feel of things. But I would like to be with her tomorrow evening, too. And I want to be here at home...