Kathryn -- the thought of these two young people, that I love so dearly, bringing a beautiful healthy baby into this world HAS brought new bliss into my life -- has just plain brought LIFE back into my life. I just want to be able to smell her "babiness" -- listen to her breathe in her sleep -- touch her tiny little fingers and toes -- and chuckle as her parents stumble over lifes little surprises in raising a child -- just like we all have.

and Dotsie -- my parents moved to Florida when I was just an infant -- this is the only home I've ever really known. My brother moved out west 30 yrs ago -- my sister and her husband (both born and raised here) went wherever the Air Force sent them -- but have been stationed outside Omaha for many many years now -- they bought a house and have raised their daughter there -- so I'm the one that's been here with my parents all along -- raised my children with grandparents being a daily part of their life. I asked my sister yesterday if she thought her daughter had "missed something" -- not being with her grandparents (her hubby's parents live here in town too)-- she didn't seem to think so -- but I think there was a bond between my boys that wasn't just quite there with my sister and brothers children -- but maybe that's just me.

I don't know exactly how my kids think about us following out there -- I can only go by the thought that my son actually TOLD me about it and that they had checked to see if there were WalMarts out there (so my husband could transfer) -- this all kinda happened pretty fast so I will have to sit down with them and have a heart to heart with them and I will abide by their wishes -- afterall -- it's their life and their child -- and I will respect that.

I learned quite early in life -- that what you want isn't always what you get I hope they want me to be a part of their life -- a part of their child's life and I hope that everything just falls into place for that to happen -- but like I said -- it IS their choice.

Soooo -- since they aren't even sure exactly where they are going and so much is still up in the air -- (even though things will be moving very quickly I'm sure) -- I've decided not to worry about it anymore. I'm going to think GOOD THOUGHTS about mommy having an easy quick safe delivery -- and pray for a healthy baby and trust that what will be will be. And be happy for them no matter what they choose.

THANK YOU LADIES -- I've had alot of loss in the last year or so -- my son, my home, my health -- life's kicked me down pretty good -- so when the kids told me they will be leaving shortly -- it kinda rocked my world again -- brought back all those feelings of "loss" -- I don't know what I would have done without you to talk to the last few days -- things always seem to be "smaller" when they aren't building up inside