Oh Lynn, my heart is just breaking for you. I'm so sorry you had endure this, but even more sorry that all women and ANY woman should have to go through this terrible disease. I watched my mother do the same as you described above...I too said, I'll never put myself through this...I thank God every day that I've not been put to the test.

I wish I could help in your healing process, but all I have to offer is that I'm so grateful to know you. I'm reading about your strength in your struggles and I'm knowing that you will continue to be an inspiration to women who are reading this. Not only does it take courage to endure the trials, but it takes a certain kind of courage to shout OUT LOUD to the world exactly what cancer has done to you and your life; how it has made you feel.

If I had a magic wand, I would wave it over you and erase this from your life.

You don't have to hide behind emotions here, as LJ says. Say what you want to say. We really are listening and we really do care.

I'm so sorry!