Lil,

Wanted to write a few lines and say that what you're doing--seeking and getting help--is good. Medication and sometimes counseling helps a great deal. I have found that getting anger out--by talking or writing with someone trustworthy---helps get out the hostility and fear.

As Dotsie mentioned, doing some volunteer work, attending church, possibly checking out an area of employment or a hobby that you've always wanted to do--also might help. A trusted friend or family member can also be very comforting.

I can also recommend prayer--one on one with God. He is always there for you and wants the best for you. If you want, I will keep you in my prayers. Psalm 91 is a wonderful psalm, because it is a psalm of protection and guidance.

Keep in touch and know that we women of the forum care and want the best for you.

Ann