Dear lin656 -- I understand and right now I'm watching my husband fade away from cancer. I've been crying all week -- just wanted to let you know that I'm reading your posts and sending you lots of love and light. Our son died in 1997 and now Ed will be going......spirit must have something wonderful in store for me to take my loved ones. It takes quite a while to get over a loss like yours - allow yourself the process and be glad that you do have children and grandchildren to help you. Hugs, Rev. Dr. Betsie H. Poinsett