Mountain Ash..yes, stagnation and self-absorbtion..I fear these things within myself..see them around me and don´t want to fall into that pithole..remembering that what I am seeing as stagnation and self absorbtion around me may actually be a "standing still and regrouping" for some
which is not a bad thing.
Expecting to be "in charge" at this stage..now this is something that I am battling with at work. I am officially in charge of my little group of 23 children and 5 adults..but I believe in giving the younger ones space and possiblities to come and incorporate their "new ideas and visions". And yet I have experience..so I can see and feel perhaps at times that the younger cannot do yet. Very tough balance act.
But I do have to allow my partner to blossom and bloom in his work..he needs it very much as he is a person that usually is quite quiet and takes the backseat to whowever makes the most noise. He is not always heard eventho he has alot to say..in his quiet and respectful (for others) way. I think his boss is aware of this..and stops to listen to him eventho he himself (the boss..a dutchman) is quite verbal and likes to talk. But he has insight, this dutchman..and he SEES my partner. So, as you mentioned, Mountain Ash..I will not stand in the way of the coming ski trip at Easter. This is important and will be fun since my partner likes skiing as well. He comes from the north of Sweden after all.
I think that we are starting to find a balance again..in our activities and needs..for the time being. I do believe that I have to take my own interests seriously..and pursue them. Take myself more seriously as an individual and woman who has been thru some things in this life. It´s not always easy to do this because the fear of being selfish and too ego centered is always there. But if I give myself this freedom.. I will be giving the same freedom to my partner and my family at large. Don´t you think? What you give out..you get back..as they say. But there is much truth there,too.