ahhhhh Eagle Heart - you sure know how to make a person feel special

Dotsie - I think your mom will forgive you this time -- she knows how busy you've been !!

but saying that - I hope you find a few minutes for YOU to go visit your mom. I'm sure it will give you a lift

How's Ross doing ?

OK Ladies,

My turn to whine. I am feeling awful. I miss my Nichole. "Miss" is just such a stupid word, when it means, I'll see you in a few months, or a year, or something. I will never stroke her beautiful hair, kiss her pretty lips, give her a backrub , (or she me), make sure that she has pretty clothes and makeup. I will never be able again to champion her cause for her alone. I loved her more than life itself - except of course for my son - I want her back. Troubles and all.......I just want her. I know I'm being selfish - Nichole is happier where she is, her life on earth was so filled with pain - emotional and physical- it makes me angry that I could not ever fix this problem......I'm a "fixer" by heart, you know....But as close as we got, we were not able to "fix" our girl. Keep us in your prayers, we need it....

Searcher

Ahhh Searcher,

Don't we all wish we had a magic wand to wave over your heart to make you feel better. (or to bring her back, for that matter!0

I can't EVEN begin to fathom the deapth of your sadness. Your daughter was so lucky to have you - you obviously love deeply.

I'm praying for you sister.

danita

Danita,

In itself, your reply gives me strength. One sister to the next. I am asking for this strength through all of you . I believe that together we can make a difference in this world, for people like Nichole, for people like ourselves, for people who are disinfranchised (Oh for heaven's sake when will I ever find my dictionary?)by the world they inhabit...Stay by me, I need you.......

I'm here too, Searcher. No magic wand, no rewind button, but lots of aching empathy for your anguish, virtual hugs for your sadness, and hope...because together, leaning on each other, having each other's shoulders to cry on, we do find hope. You're not alone.

And I'm here, too, Searcher - and Dotsie - and all of you who have experienced losses. I just have to believe that the ones we've lost are still here with us in their own way - after all, this life on earth can't be all there is...and aren't we the lucky ones to have had those people to love and to love us? Maybe it's better for us to be here, feeling the pain of loss, than for them to be here without us feeling the same pain. They have been spared that part of it.

and no , I was the lucky one to have had her. Nichole was the blessing, not I. And She told us so - "I am a blessing to this famiy whether anyone knows it or not! Ver Batum from Nichole. She was really a person who knew her stuff!!!!! I adored her.....

How sweet is that! That's a child who was secure and loved!

great, big, fluffy hugs,
danita

Searcher, did you tell us about Nichole in another forum? I've been looking, but can't find where you signed on...you sound like such a special, compassionate and loving woman, I want to know more about you.

What! No rewind button?

Damn! I was really hoping for that one! But I am so looking forward to having a relationship with you women. It's hard to let Nichole go to wherever she needs to be (but Nik knows EXACTLY where she should be and I trust her judgement.) So, talk to me often , support me, and we will be friends......