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#33590 - 08/08/05 07:37 AM
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This is the appropriate heading to post this in, I do believe. I wrote this true story for a contest called “Unhappy Childhood.” I attempted to write it through the many tears that ran down my face as I recalled these times. Writing this story was supposed to be therapeutic but instead I think I need a therapist to help me unravel all that has happened (BTW- I laughed out loud instead of crying just then) I was sad that I have such a story to enter into a contest like this. Sadder when it won a ribbon. Even sadder that since I wrote it (one of many) those memories are resurfacing and interrupting my sanity…sorta stealing my joy but suppressing them has done no good. They have to be released in one way or another I guess but my goodness how these hurt. The explicit words used in this story are quotes demonstrative of the verbal, emotional and “you name it” kind of abuse endured. http://mem.writing.com/main/view_item/item_id/956902
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#33591 - 08/08/05 08:33 AM
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Hi Sugar, I eagerly tried to get to your article but no success. In the web address, are there spaces between the words "view" and "item" and the words "item" and "id"? I'd like to take a look see at what you wrote. I am sad and sorry that you had to experience so much abuse. I had to resume therapy during the course of writing my book. The thing about suppressing bad memories is that you suppress the good too. A good way to release them is by writing and also by seeing a counselor. Let me know a better link, okay? Love and Light, Lynn [ August 08, 2005, 01:35 AM: Message edited by: lynn329 ]
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#33593 - 08/08/05 09:23 AM
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#33596 - 08/09/05 07:54 AM
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Sugar, I am so sorry for your loss and your pain. I'm praying that your heart and soul heals from this. May God bless you & comfort you, today - and every day.
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#33599 - 08/09/05 07:05 AM
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Hi Sheree, I am so sorry for what you have been put through. I hope you move through these memories and events with hope and peace. Love and Light, Lynn
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#33600 - 08/09/05 05:09 PM
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Dear Sweet Sugar,
I have to tell you a little bit about this story of mine. I want you to know - really, really know - that God can give better revenge (He calls it justice) than we could ever dream up for our enemies.
When I was in the Air Force in my early 20's, I had a boss who really went out of his way to harrass me & make my life miserable. There was no justification for what this man did to me.
Shortly before I left the service, God allowed me to see what happened to this man. Believe me, he got what he deserved and then some. The fact that I was allowed to witness it is nothing short of a miracle.
We started out on opposite sides of the world and ended up in the same place at the same time. A huge place, where the odds of us even meeting were astronomical.
I managed to forgive that man and even pray for him - awful as he was to me - because it was just about like the Lord speaking in my ear, "See, you don't have to worry about those who persecute my children. I have ways of dealing with them that are far better than your ways."
And to this day, I find it much easier to 'let things go' and let God sort it out for me. I hope my little story can give you some peace. Your Friend Always -
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#33603 - 08/10/05 05:22 PM
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No Sugar, it wasn't just you. I don't know why we go through the things we do, I just don't know. But I do know that we can be stronger for it - and able to help those among us that go through hard times too. Maybe they aren't as strong as we are, or maybe they don't know to cling to God for strength - in that way, our surviving can help them survive, too. (Maybe we would just be bored with a 'charmed' life and God knows that...) wishful thinking on my part?
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#33604 - 08/10/05 10:53 PM
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Hi Sugaree,
New to this forum, but I can so relate to your childhood memories. In my case it was a uncle. Years and years... I kept it completely hidden. Then, in my 30's it could no longer be contained. Through therapy I learned to write everything I was feeling down, get it out. As it appears you have been doing. Finally, was able to tell my mom....her first words were "don't tell your dad, he will kill him". Sounded good to me. Dad had an extremely short fuse, very controlling, physcially abusive himself. My mom was the first to pass, so my secret remained untold, by promise to her. Day it came out was right after my dad was buried, (same day in fact). One of my cousins had a little girl, he was sitting close telling his mom how my uncle had offered to watch his little girl afternoons. Well...that was it, all of it came out. Come to find out he had even abused his youngest sister (who still has trouble coping), his young daughter from his first marriage, and who knows who else. Did write him a letter, just to pour out all the emotions I felt. He denied all of it. He died years later of cancer. Just a few years ago I was able to forgive him. Forgave, so I might be forgiven. Why does this happen? To make sure it doesn't happen to my children, grandchildren, great grand children or any child around me, (looking back I really didn't hide those emotions) sometimes I think it make us more aware of young children & their emotions. That saying is so true....."Whatever doesn't kill you, makes you stronger". You are safe now, and healing. My prayers are with you, & all the many others who have faced, or are now facing, abuse of any form. Lets all stand together, in knowledge, love, and prayer to rid the world of such hate.
Brenda
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