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#6457 - 05/18/05 07:25 AM
Help! Cheating, trust issues...
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Registered: 05/16/05
Posts: 4
Loc: Canada
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Hi there,
(I know this is long...)
I have been married for just 3 years. About a year ago, I came across some emails that shocked me and really broke my heart. I was planning my husbands 30th birthday bash, it wasn’t a surprise, he knew about it. I planned to email all his friends for the invite. In order to do so I went into his email account.
There was one address that was conflicting, so I decided to check his sent files (such a snoop I know) to see who it was by reading any emails that were sent to this person. Anyways, after I read their conversation I was go was shocked and hurt. The conversation implied some form of sex, (phone sex is what I’m thinking) he was suggesting for another session. I’ve met this person, she was at our wedding, and they’ve been friends for years. She told him it wouldn’t happen again, because it wasn’t the right thing to do.
So I planned the party and kept this to myself. About a month later I brought it up with him. He was angry big time. He was really defensive, and kept blaming me for invading his privacy. He became so upset that he said, “it was over.” He said, I had no trust in him and that our marriage would never make it. He said that the emails look bad to someone else reading them, but really it was nothing. I asked him to explain, he wouldn’t. I asked him if he was bored with me? He said no. I asked him if it was oral sex, he said no, he said that would be cheating. I said I thought perhaps it was phone sex, he never responded. I asked more questions, he said it was a form of acting and that’s all he would say. He just wanted the subject to be dropped. But my heart hurt so much, I couldn’t believe this was happening, He’s had female friends forever, I just really believed him when he said they they’re just friends. I would always suggest that in marriage things change, that having female friends is not a good idea. That night he promised me that he wouldn’t talk to any of his girl friends.
But he still has all they’re contact info in our database, every last one. I have checked his cell to see if any of them have called and I have seen their numbers. I‘ve checked his emails, but found nothing. I beginning to think that his mentality is “out of sight, out of mind.” When I’m not around he can do whatever he wants.
Recently, I checked his MSM history conversations he had with a couple of his girl friends With one he was big time flirting, his friend asked how I was doing, and his response was, “after I said all that, u had to mention my wife!” He went on to counsel her with her relationship problems. Another, friend, he spoke to was just going thorough a break up and her trust was shattered and again he was counseling her. She thought marriage was a huge step and that commitment was really scary…. his response was, “I know, I’m married, I a have a hard time committing.”
I have started to see a counselor; I guess I just needed to some insight, on my behavior, his behavior and what I should do. I know I am a good wife in every aspect; I take care of him well, at least everyone around me says that. I am I been a nosey wife, or am I just trying to look out for myself. Any advice would be greatly appreciated.
Thanks
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#6458 - 05/18/05 08:05 AM
Re: Help! Cheating, trust issues...
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Registered: 11/08/03
Posts: 3512
Loc: outer space
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Nikita, A husband and wife stand before God and are declared One so a wife cannot be nosey. He is a part of the one. Anything he does is a part of you.
Internet or phone sex, is intimate. And it is not only a sexual bond that is broken, but what may be worse, the bond of intimacy is broken.
It sounds as if he also broke your trust. You can forgive him because forgiveness is given, but he will have to earn your trust if he is to ever regain it.
Once broken, trust is forever fragile with cracks that can become caverns and trust is yours to give or not. Only God can completely mend a broken trust. Unless your heart is healed, you may forever be checking on his emails and his communications.
The choice is yours. Prayer is your companion now. We can only pray with and for you. Hang in there to allow God time to work. smile [ May 18, 2005, 12:19 PM: Message edited by: smilinize ]
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#6459 - 05/18/05 05:29 PM
Re: Help! Cheating, trust issues...
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Queen of Shoes
Registered: 05/24/04
Posts: 6123
Loc: Arizona
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I'm really sorry for your pain. I was married to a cheater.
I don't think you did anything wrong by checking up on him. It sounds like he knows you're going to check emails and has changed his form of communication and if you really want to know what is going on, don't tell him where or what you're checking. I could never keep my big mouth shut long enough to spy!
I think a good counselor can help you a lot but the problem is, who is going to help your husband to commit to a marriage? Does he want this to work? Will he stop? How would he feel if you stayed in touch with men from your past, friends or boyfriends? Would it bother him if you talked sex with another man? I'm thinking it would and if it didn't, you have a husband who will probably never take your marriage seriously.
If it were me, I would set down a hard and fast rule, if it happens again, it's over. You know, a good divorce attorney will ask for the IP address on a computer and track all comings and goings. Even if the history has been deleted. You might consider tracking for future use.
Again, I'm just so sorry for this.
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#6460 - 05/19/05 07:36 AM
Re: Help! Cheating, trust issues...
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Registered: 05/11/05
Posts: 26
Loc: Georgia Mountains
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Oh, gosh. I'm so sad this happened to you. It doesn't sound, to me, like your husband "gets" what marriage is all about. It's not "going steady" where the occasional flirtation can be expected. I doubt you want a marriage that is so fraught with distrust, would you? Some men just never grow up, some men feel they've lost their attractiveness to the opposite sex once they marry (and feel they have to prove it, somehow), and some men need constant ego gratification any way they can get it.
I agree with Dianne: once more and you're outta there. For your own sake. Please.
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#6462 - 05/18/05 10:42 PM
Re: Help! Cheating, trust issues...
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Registered: 05/16/05
Posts: 4
Loc: Canada
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Thank you all for your kind words.
I don't think he really understands what marriage is about. He thinks cheating is any physical form of sex.
He won't go to counselling, I've tried and tried.
My counsellor told me to list out my values and expectations about marriage and present it to him, and see what his response is. I so want to let my frustrations out on him, I get so emotional when I talk to him about anything serious, I'll keep u posted.
Thanks again [ May 18, 2005, 03:43 PM: Message edited by: nikita ]
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