mrs madness, sorry to hear you are still in a funk. Go back and reread what Dotsie wrote, they are my sentiments, exactly.

We each need to find ways to create our happiness. We can't depend on others, even husbands or children, to provide us happiness.

I wish the very best for you. I know, if you want to and reflect on what makes you happy, you will find the road to joy.
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