Dear New Leaf, it sounds like you are living over your means, and for a long time now. It should never come down to the fact that you have to go hungry.

There are organizations and churches out there to help you! What about the church you go to?

Sounds like you have everything in control what your grandchildren are concerned, and that is good. The rest will fall in place, but you need additional help at this point in your life. You must swallow your pride and do what you can to keep up your strength; if not for yourself, then for your grandchildren.

It makes me sick to hear that the mother gets her nails done instead of helping you out.