Hey, I crank up the CD player in my car and rock out too. I don't think I'll ever grow up in that area and don't want to either.

I believe your lack of trust comes from your mother and we try to rewrite history with the same type of personality to get it right but the problem is, we are working with the same personality so it never goes as planned. If we pull abusive men into our lives, chances are that our girlfriends will also be abusive in some form. I learned that in therapy and my friendship base changed after that. And, once I changed what I accepted in my life, I suddenly had "like minds" enter in. I found friends who were spiritual and cared about others with true love.

Just last month I was on a water slide with my grandkids and had the time of my life. I don't think you sound strange at all.