We actually had a fun day yesterday. This won't sound fun to everyone....but we had a huge drink each and proceeded finishing up the outside lights. We're here in our own little world where no one sees and hears us. We laughed a lot, had a snowball fight, tipped a ladder over....but we cried also. He has such a hole in his heart about the absence of his daughters. At least it was mostly a good day. You know, dancer, you're so right about how a soldier learns and then is expected to just be "normal" upon his return. It really doesn't make any sense at all when one goes through all of that such as a very unpopular war. Add to that his childhood background and then previous marriage. Sometimes I see him as a total emotional wreck. Sometimes I see myself in the same light and wonder how we can ever survive....with anyone. So often I just walk daily on eggshells to keep the peace. Not really a great way to live.