I wish you were here, celtic, to help me find and use a therapist. You made me feel willing to, despite the deeply instilled beliefs. You explained the religious thinking against meditation/hypnosis/messing with the spirit world very succinctly. I couldn't have done better myself - and I've lived it.
Princess, the more I hear of your life, the more I wish I could take it back from you. But, then you wouldn't be the person you are for us. You couldn't be any wonderful, tho. BTW, what is a psycho analyst? Where do they fall in the therapy lot?

And, how does one choose a hypnotist?