Eagle,
I haven't watch it but today ABC News has a video about [Food that elevates a person's mood]. It might be worth watching? If you can get your hands on some "Power of Positive Thinking" booklets, they might help. I fought depression for a solid 2 and 1/2 years back in the early 70s. I know what you're going through. And you have to fight that low-down, basement feeling. Drugs did me absolutely no good. But that might just be me. You could try replacing sad, bad thinking with funny shows such as,
I Love Lucy or whatever sitcom you enjoy. Old shows, comedy, uplifting reading...whatever works for you. I'm sorry you're experiencing that sadness, blueness stuff.
Older folks sang, "keep on the sunnyside, always on the sunnyside." And it's simple but profound. Whatever you enjoy doing, do that! Get a little bit of enjoyment out
each day, if you can. I don't know. I just know life can get you down, if you don't work at staying above what weighs on a person. Hugs, prayers and blessings...