lion, that's beautiful. I don't have many words of comfort to offer. I love you and yearn for your emptiness to fill. I can't blame you for your thoughts and emotions. They're so real.

I can't stand that you're blaming yourself, but I understand. We're mothers. It's what we do.

May God continue to allow you to vent and find comfort in His arms. Remeber, he meets you wherever you are. [Wink]