Searcher,

You are exhausted because you are grieving. Grief is like that. In some ways I would guess that you can't imagine having one more thing go wrong. So rest. Grieve, heal. Write in your journal, if that helps you. Get in touch with the inner most part of your heart, the part where God lives, whatever you perceive God to be. When and if it is time to write your story, you will know. I do hope you do write. You are gifted in that area. Who knows, maybe by the time you are ready to publish I will be totally famous from my writing and can help you get your stuff published.

Love and healing to you,

Vi