I know exactly how you are feeling Chatty...my husband insisted that we find another puppy after Zeke died in January..we went online and found several breeders..I called a couple of them and they all sent me videos of their litters...I bit the bullet and put a deposit on a little cutie...but as the time drew near to pick him up I began to panic..what was I doing? No one could replace Zekie...but I had put a sizeable deposit on the new puppy which was non refunadable...apparently most people change their minds when the time draws near...so Ray and I went to get him...and I was certain that I would be calling my oldest daughter and surprising her with a new cocker spaniel puppy...but the little guy stole my heart...and I have such a sense of peace about Zekie..I know in my heart he didn't want me to be sad and missing him so much...while I still think of him and miss him every day, I know longer feel that stabbing pain in my heart when I think of him..and I have the sweetest little puppyboy sitting beside me licking my hand as I type you this post...I hope you allow yourself the luxury of loving another puppy my Friend...you deserve that and so much more....