This is indeed a difficult lesson. Eagle your words are wonderful. I've been struggling with this very issue for over five years now. I lost someone I loved to the extreme and have been arguing with God about why He didn't heal her and her circumstances, which were truly unfair. I love God but am hurt and devastated by this whole ordeal. I'm reading books by others who prayed long and hard, yet their prayers went unanswered too. I'm feeling ostracized by the world and forgotten by God, on one hand. On the other hand, I'm trying to glean some good from all
this garbage and find a silver lining behind a dark, dark cloud. So here we go: Thank you God for this miserable nightmare!
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