Gosh, Chatty. That really sounds like nasty stuff. Maybe you should join me in reading Joyce Meyers, "Power Thoughts"; I'm only starting Power Thought #4, but I see a difference in the
easing of tensions, already. Good luck with whatever is going on
your life. Prayers and blessings...

Okay, here are her 12 power thoughts, in my words:
I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.
God loves me unconditionally.
I will not fear.
I will not be easily offended.
I love people and gladly help everyone I can.
I trust God completely, so there's no reason to worry.
I am content and emotionally stable.
God provides my every need abundantly.
I will pursue peace with God, myself and others.
I will live in the present, enjoying every momment.
I am disciplined and have self-control.
I will put God first in everything.