yonuh, Anne, and Ellemm,
Thank you so much for the kind, wise words. I know these things and still fall into the pits now and again. I practice positive thinking, mostly. I do believe in God. And I know His actions aren't always understood by the human mind; trick is to "trust God completely" and accept His Will in our lives. As God is my witness, [I'm trying.] Patti was getting better when I left for vacation. I was shocked to hear of her death, to say the least. And in the stunned state human thought processes don't always work as they should. I've been focusing on Norman Vincent Peale's Positive Thinking ideas for decades. And I'll get myself back on track! Prayers and blessings....You ladies are great!!!!