Hi Calypso,
Yep, that's how I felt too. My worst fear was my husband dying & leaving me all alone...& then it happened. But, I survived! It's not easy to learn how to live alone, I'd never lived alone, ever, went straight from my parents to my husband. You never know how strong you are until strength is your only choice.
Welcome to the Boomer site; the gals here have helped me so much the last few years.

Hope you'll take a look at my blog, new post today.
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