Kay 5 - You have made some really good points there. He did finally apologize for hurting me. Does he realize how much, I am not sure. I am so hurt now I really do not have the energy to do anything else but read and watch TV. I just bought some self help books to read tonight. I plan on going to a 12 step S-Anon on Saturday and I have another meeting with my counselor on Monday. I work 9 to 5 Monday - Friday, and right now that is a blessing too. I enjoy my work and the people around me. One of the books I bought is "What to do When you Don't Know What to Do." God Will Make a Way. I guess, One Day At a Time. Again, thanks for checking in on me. I really need the support right now.