Bliss (aka #5)
Body work is a type of body massage which really concentrates on releasing emotional pain. It's really trusting someone to work with your body and who you feel free to cry in front of and release yourself to her touch.

I get concerned when you say you are going to the gym everyday and not eating much. It doesn't sound healthy. The person who shows up to love you won't care how skinny you are. They will love the inner you, the soul you have shining from within.

I would also let go of looking for someone right now. I believe you need to find and love yourself first.

You are not a loser -- not in any way, shape or form. You are transitioning and it takes a lot of strength!

I realize I've given a lot of advice here -- take what you like and leave the rest! :--)))