All the advice has been good and I thank you very much.

I really don't want to spend the rest of my life alone though. I like decorating a home for another person and myself, cooking for the two of us or a whole group! I really enjoy being with another person who I feel intimate with, who knows me and "gets" me and I them.

So, I guess that's where the fear comes in. All this is uncharted territory. I was only alone 3 months after my husband died and he was the most wonderful man in the world.