Yep,it would be nice if we could all stop "looking for love in all the wrong places." I'm so sorry you had it so rough, number 5 (geez, I wish you'd change that name). We expect our parents to be loving and wise and they are, unfortunately, human with a lot of baggage of their own.

You were the best mom you could possibly for who you were at the time. You are the best mom you possibly can be right now! Pat yourself on the back. Glad you come here for support, too -- we love you!

Your parents seem pretty toxic. You might think about putting them on your "do not call" list. This is a time when you need the healthiest people around you you can possibly have -- people who see God within you shining forth.

We do. Keep coming back.