Dear Di, I've noticed that you have posted repeatedly about this topic, and despite many ladies who have tried to show their understanding and give you comfort, your hurt can't seem to stop. Have you ever tried to find professional help? I don't mean this in a derogatory way. I just feel that no matter how we try to explain or try to comfort you, it doesn't ease your pain, your feeling of loss and even resentment.

To resent someone is to fall under the illusion that they are the cause of our suffering.

I would have loved to have more children, but I don't resent any mother who has had this privilege. Now that my children are adults, I also enjoy finding myself again. This joy is as large as motherhood. After all, your life is all about you; your childhood, your growing up, and now your adulthood. There are many stages within yourself to discover. It's the joy of life within itself.