Di, yes I've been sad for not having my own child, for children can be your best friend, love and God's living proof, they can be a great joy and bring sadness. I miss that I'll never share that with a human being that I brought into this world. I miss not being able to associate with other mothers who seem to have a common connection. Yet, at the same time I'm glad for my freedom and have often worried if I'd be a good parent, knowing my child rearing - would I better or worse? An oxymoron, if you will.