(Quote) Ruby, I'm glad you posted. The only thing I can say out of my own on-going experience is that we get the Christmas we plan for. In other words, whatever our focus is, that's the Christmas we make for ourselves. If we focus on it being "just another day", that's all it will be in the end.

Eagle Heart thank you for those sage words. They mean a lot to me. I understand what you are saying. When you mentioned that I should have the people around that I want my first thought was friends not family. I am beginning to know that that is OK and I don't have to feel bad that I am not happy with family. I choose my friends my disfunctional family was not a choice but can be one now or not.
I will have to decide what I want out of the season this year and make it happen.

What a challenge!
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My favorite prayer Ephesians 3:16-21